Advance

Hello there!~

It is almost the end of the school holiday, so I`m not happy about it at all. No more wake up late, no more TV all day. I hate it.

So, I was thinking for all the time. It is about my advance. My subject is already 9 so I was thinking and kept thinking if I really need them or not. Plus it is going to be hard for me who is a very lazy person.

I had a very hard time with my Principal Account, Add-Math & Commerce. I felt want to cry every time I was answering the question. Everyone could answer it ... even they were below me but ... I was having a real bad time ~.~ How hard it is for me?

So, after there were university students came to my school, they were inspiring me to take more. I was decided to take :

• Physics :{
• Biology ... ( no comment )
• Chemistry ... ( cry harder )
• Geography ...( my school didn`t teach that when Form 4 )
• Economical ... ( it almost like Commerce ... Have to take it for next year competition)

That things kill me! Absolutely, yes!~ I need to take tuition for that crazy things. 5 subjects addition that might kill my brain. I need to help myself since no one will help me! 

I may be crazy but ... I still have something good to do for my own self. I maybe a nerd but at least I do something worthy. Right, huh?~

I am going to show the world that the girl that looks stupid like me can do it.

Plus ... I really need to improve my BM or not I`m going to fail since I don`t know why with my BM is. Otherwise, I`m so embarrassed if I fail.

I also need to be good in my History, that`s need to be improve too. History sounds fun since my teacher is a great and funny teacher but when I was studying by myself, I will say goodnight or do something else!

Also, with others subjects!~~~ So, do wish me good luck! I was way to far from my others bestie. So ... enough about study...Bye

I am so sure if I get 

a good results for SPM

next year

I`m sure I`ll make everyone

face like that ^^

14 subjects

Here I am!~

Month : May

May ...

Good morning everyone in the world!

Well, today is 24th of May so, it is Friday now. It`s already school holidays. And I`m not sure ... how boring I could be.

Well, from 1st May until now, it is so boring. Even though, many things had happened to me and others. But I still felt it was boring.

1st May, was a labor day so it was holiday. I met a very handsome guy but he was older. I knew it because one of his friends was someone who was I know. He was an offshore guy. He had a charisma. Next story, on the same day, my friend, Taeng met a guy who was 17 years older. Never mind, I don`t care.

2nd May, Seororo met a guy too. It was Taeng`s neighbour. She said he was so perfect. He wore a V-line neck shirt with a long sleeves. He wore Rolex. He also wore a nice perfume. Polo, maybe? He also a tall person. He smiled sweetly to Seo. Nice, huh?

Bla ... bla ... bla ...

10th May, Commerce exam.. I don`t think I do better but a few days ago, I got the result and ... it`s okay! It is still A ... So, my dad ... maybe fine but then ...

13th May, not good. I got the result and I`ve got C on my on language. Shit! I hate it. Then ....

Practically, I had turn into a bad result. I don`t know why with my own self. I became a lazy person. Why with me?! I didn`t even want to study. 

Taeng, Yoon and also Seo ... they are all soooooooooooooo diligent. They`ve got a better result not like mine. I hate myself now ... and I don`t know why. Plus, a guy with a big head is back so, he was stressing me out. GO AWAY!!! I HATE YOU!!!

18th May,

Our drama competition. Proudly saying that we had been practicing drama for almost 5 months. That a great thing, huh? I really happy since my school had been the host for this year. Many of my teachers came that day, they even gave us courage. I am happy. I also done my best since my sister had come to see with my parents.

When we were performed, we had got a great respond but ... DANG!

We were winning anything, after a slap from a friend, a slap from me ... Dah! No way!! I hate reality. Can`t I stay in fantasy?

So ... overall ... we lose. I hate it. I didn`t even smiled after the show. That school kept screaming like crazy bcuz they thought they were going to lose but not! That`s good, huh? I love it!!! Bloody school!

So ... enough about today. I`m getting angrier when I replay my memories, so goodbye!

VIXX

Fake!

Hi!~
Okay, it`s been 5 days after 2013. Time walks very fast until I didn`t notice it at all. Well, school ... it is kind of boring. Yeah, maybe it is because I am still doesn`t have any mood or spirit at all.
    Okay, I don`t want to talk about school right now. I want to talk about fake. It is about this girl. Well, she is fine. I know that! But sometimes, she seems fake to me. She is 'spicy'. lol. She was a friend of mine. Not a best friend .. Just a friend. That`s all. Nothing more.
     I am a Sones too, so is she. My best friend was a Sones too, so they were talking about the new Girls` Generation song, I got a boy a few days ago. She was like not herself. Faking!!! Like what I see. She was also like very ... erm, I don`t know how to describe it but she was like very over-reacting.
      I am not sure that my best friends like-or-hate her. I am not sure but this is what I thought. I don`t really like her since before. I was just friend with her, for some kind of kindhearted aim. That`s all ... This is not my best friends  ...

Poor them!

Okay, 30 minutes before I was watching midnight news. At Sabah, there was a poor baby had been throw away to the sea.  There were many bruises in that baby`s body. I was almost crying because of that poor baby. The parents shouldn`t do that. He/She was so innocent. They were so cruel until they dare to throw it away just like a garbage. I kill them for doing that baby.
      You should not throw them away like that until they`re die. Think when you being throw away and did not even have a chance to live. Think of it. Well, maybe someone that throw it does not have a brain to think. God gives a chance to born that baby for them to live not to be killed. Please think about the sins or not you should think of that cute baby. Please to all people, please stop doing it ^^ May God bless you.

Love is All the Same (Chapter 3)

“Jane, I heard that you will move to San Francisco. Is it true?” says Helen. “Yes, I`m going to move to San Francisco.” says Jane. “When is it?” asks Helen calmly. “Why are you asking me?” asks Jane sadly. “Just to make sure …” says Helen. “Do you like someone right now?” asks Jane. “If I say yes, and why it is?” says Helen calmly. “I know someone that have crush on you.” says Jane. “WHO?” asks Helen? Helen is not looking at Jane before but after Jane told that someone liked her. “Jane tells me …” says Helen. “He is someone in this class …” says Jane more sadly. “Danny?” Jane looks at Helen blankly who was waiting for her to answer. “Jane, is it Danny?” asks Helen again. “If I say yes, what you going to do?” asks Jane. “Well I`m going to … confess to him.” says Helen happily. “He was the most handsome guy in our school.” says Helen. Then Jane tells the truth. She do feels sad but that`s the only way. “Helen, he did love you. He had a crush to you for a month already…” says Jane. She knows that she need to keep it secret but Helen is a beautiful girl and Danny is a handsome guy so they will be a great couple. “Jane, can you stop lying? You know that you are totally bad at lying.” says Helen not trusting Jane. “Then don`t believe. I have a proof …” says Jane. “Then where is it? Where is your proof?” asks Helen. Then Jane shows her message with Danny. “You are texting with him?” asks Helen jealously. “For you … I did it for you …” says Jane sadly. “Is it true? Didn`t you love him?” asks Helen. “No, I`m, I never tell you about him if I like him …” says Jane. “Okay then … it looks true. But if your plan to prank me, you better watch it!” warns Helen. “How could you say that to your own friend? Am I, your friend anyway?” asks Jane. “I don`t know, Jane. You seem so far away from me. Especially you want to move away …” says Helen. “Then good … I don`t even know if I`ve got any friend, I also never know who Helen is …” says Jane. “What do you mean?” says Helen. Jane does not even care about her so she just goes away. She comes to school today is for managing her schooling thing. So she goes to teacher`s office … She`s done all her work so she just waits for her sister, Jessie. Jane starts to cry again. With the wind outside her school, there she sits alone coldly with the tears in her eyes. She`s still remember what Danny wrote. Then suddenly, “Jane …” a guy`s voice. With a bit of energy she`s got, she lift her head to see who is it. She`s feels shock to see it was Danny. Her heart stops beating for a while. “Danny …” says Jane. Danny sits beside her. He looks angry. “Why?” he asks. Jane looks at him blankly. “What?” she asks. “You promise to me, already.” says Danny. “Promise what?” asks Jane blankly. Danny sighs. “Jane, you promise to me. For not telling her …” he whispers the last word. “Ops … I did meant to do It.” says Jane. “Anyway, why didn`t you want to tell her? You … two look good together …” says Jane sadly. Her tears drop. Danny feels shock. “Jane, why are you? What happen to you?” says Danny? “Nothing.” says Jane with a weak voice. She starts to stand up but Danny takes her hand. Her eyes widened. “Tell me …” says Danny. Suddenly, “JANE!!!!!” says Jessie that was eyeing their conversation since the beginning. “Let her go …” says Jessie madly. “Jess …” says Jane weakly. “Are you Jane`s sister?” asks Danny. “Who care who I am …” says Jessie madly. “Jess, please don`t. Can`t we just go now?” says Jane with her cold tears in her eyes. “Danny Greg, stop playing with girl`s heart, I afraid that you might get that back.” warns Jessie while taking Jane away. “Where are you going, Jane?” shouts Danny. “Don`t answers that …” says Jessie to Jane. “Okay …” says Jane.

Love is All the Same (Chapter 2)

While she was crying, her didn`t notice that her sister was knocking for a few times but she didn`t heard at all. So her sister just comes in her room. She was shock to see Jane was crying very hard. “Jane, are you crying?” asks her sister Jessie. Jane feels very shock to see her sister. “Jessie …” says Jane. “I am not …” while wiping her eyes and nose. “Don`t lie to me …” while closing the door afraid that their mother will listen. “I am not, Jess …” says Jane. “Jayne, why did you want to lie to your own sister?” asks Jessie worryingly. “I didn`t lie to you … Nothing happens, Jess … Don`t worry!” says Jane. “Jane …” shouts Jessie. “Shhh … Jessie. Mom will hear us.” says Jane. “Then, tell me.” says Jessie. “Okay …” says Jane give up. “Then, start your story,” says Jessie. “It`s about my crush …” start Jane. “Danny Greg …” mention Jessie. Jane feels shock to hear his name. “Jess, how do you?” asks Jane to her sister. “Well, I`m your sister … I`ve seen your message with him.” says Jessie. “What … You had been read my message secretly … How could you?” says Jane. “Jane, don`t be mad, okay! I`m sorry … I didn`t mean to see it but I turn it off after I saw it. I swear I didn`t read all of It.” says Jessie. “Okay … it`s him.” says Jane. “So what`s the problem? I can see how happy you were. I always see how your smile always on your face every time you came back from school.” says Jessie. “I know … It was before. But today he confess to Me.” says Jane sadly. “Confess to you about what?” asks Jessie curiously. “Something that made me cries before …” says Jane. Jessie can see how her tears start to drop. “Jane … I don`t want you to continue your story … I know how hurt you are so …” then Jane cut her words. “He loves Helen … He loves my best friend. I thought he got crush on me every time he looked back but exactly he was looking Helen. I was …” Jane can`t continue her words. She starts to cry again. Jessie hugs her. She loves her sister. Jane means everything to her. “Jane … I`m sorry …” says Jessie. Jane is still crying. “Jane, I am so sorry to tell you this but this is what I think.” Jane looks at Jessie. “What is it, Jess?” asks Jane. “Forget him. Find a new guy.” says Jessie. “But how can I do that? He was my classmates too. How can I forget him when I see him every day? His smile, his laugh, his lips and everything about him … How can I do that? I had tried it but it`s hard. I`ve try it whenever I had gave up with him.” says Jane. “Then follow me back to San Francisco. Leave New York for a while. That`s the only way, Jane.” says Jane. Jane looks at Jessie for a while. “I`ll think of it, Jess … It`s kind of hard for me. And do you think gonna let me go?” says Jane. “Of course … they will. We live with Aunt Zoe. But I`m not going to force you …” says Jessie. “I`m going to leave you alone …” says Jessie. “Okay, tells mom I`m full already …” says Jane. “Okay …” says Jessie. Then after Jessie leaves Jane alone, she starts to cry again. Her crush for almost a year confesses to her that he loved someone else. His someone else is Helen. Jane`s best friend. She just can`t believe. “I have to go to San Francisco … no matter what happen.” says Jane.

Love Is All the Same (Chapter 1)

“Jane, do you want to go with us this Saturday? We are going to the new shopping mall. They said that many shops are doing their offers that also have 50%. Want to go too?” asks Helen. “No, I`m not …” says Jane. “Why? Our exam was over already. What`s the problem?” asks Helen again. “Well, my parents maybe not let me go. There still has the last exam. Anyway I need to keep my money pocket.” says Jane humbly. “Whatever, Jane … We`re going …” says Helen while leaving Jane alone. Jane Summer, a 16 years old girl. She was a very quiet and shy girl. Helen was her best friend before. But after Helen met her best friend back, Ann and Cathlyn, she was forgetting about Jane. Well, Jane was just let them be. What`s her friends don`t know are, that she was crushing on someone. It was a guy from their class too. Danny Greg. He was a top guy from her school. One of the most handsome guys! But she didn`t dare to confess her love. She know who herself. But she did talk to her. But only messaging … She was secretly found his number phone and started to talk to him. Danny treated her kindly. They had been started to text each other since 2 months ago but they never talk between face to face. They were like nothing happen in the school. When they met each other at school, they were just pretend like nothing happen and never talk about it in their ‘conversation’. So Jane comes home and just goes to her room and finds her phone. She didn`t dare to bring her phone because she`s afraid that someone will read her message between her and Danny. So she check her phone, there is already a message from him. ‘How you do today?’ he asks. ‘Good. How about you …’ asks Jane to him. ‘Well, same with you. What do you think about the test? Is it hard?’ asks Danny. ‘Not really, why … Is it hard for you?’ asks Jane while her heart is full of flowers just like in the garden. “Danny …” whispers her mouth. ‘My head was exploding and my brain was out from my head. So I can`t think anymore. Can`t you see what happen to me? My brain went to your desk.’ says Danny jokingly. Jane is laughing very hard when she saw his message. ‘Wow! I thought there was a firecracker`s show. And I am already threw the brain. I`m sorry, I didn`t know that it was yours’ While she`s giggle. She was smiling alone how the most guys in her school could, and her crush is texting with her. “It was like a dream to me. I wish that we can be like this forever.” says Jane. ‘Jane? Why didn`t you be with Helen like before? Laughing together?’ Jane feels very shock to see the message. ‘What do you mean I`m with Helen like before?’ ask Jane confusedly. ‘You are not close with Helen since there are Ann and Cathlyn. You always alone in the class, do the revision alone. Why? What happen?’ says Danny. She feels more shock to see the next message. So she replies, ‘It`s nothing. I swear nothing. So don`t worry. I am like to be alone. And why did you ask me about Helen?’ asks Jane. ‘Do you like her?’ add Jane. She waits for a very long time to see what he replies. She`s busy with her school works then she heard her phone rang. She looks at it. It was a message from Danny. Then she read his message. ‘I want you to keep this secret even you are her friend. Yes, Jane! I do love her. I love Helen since a few months ago. I am so glad to see that you started to texting with me. But I`m not using you! I never asked about Helen, right? So I am sincere to be your text friend.’ Her phone was slipped from her phone. Her tears start to flow. She just can`t believe what she saw. Danny, her crush was fall in love with her friend, Helen. “What? He loves Helen. So all the time he was looking was not me, it was Helen who sit beside me before … Because of that her wasn`t looking back anymore … He didn`t even like me. I was just his text friend. Not more than that. I was hoping too far away …” says Jane while crying. She just can`t reply back because she don`t know what to say. It was like a hard slap she just got.