Well, well I forgot something. But now I remember.

 

Hope everyone having fun right now. Laugh. Smile.

 

Well today(25.12.2011), when I open my Facebook, I saw my truly best friend send really sweet message ever. I feel really happy in this morning already. Well my best friend, Taeng, you are my medicine to me right now.

This is she send to me

"Thank you My Pudding . When life gives me a hundred reasons to cry, I want to show life that have a thousand reasons to smile when you're always with me . Remember , your tears is my tears too , your smile is my smile too , your pain is my pain , your happiness is my happiness and your sadness is my sadness . I want to do everything with you . I would never let you go through all of that thing alone . I'm here for you . Always . No matter what time . Every second , minute , hour , day , month or even year :) The best relationship is when two of them can act like lovers and best friends . Somewhere between laughing for no reason, stupid arguments, and making fun of each other, I think we're getting closer . Do you know how hard is my day without you ? Like what I ever told you , I was like a coffee without sugar when you're not with me :( I love it when we always talk like best friends, fool around like children, discuss thing like couple, always protect each other like sisters .. Can you promise me you won't forget me, because if I thought you would, how is my life going to be ? Even though I'm not perfect to be your best friend , I want to thank you for making your voice as the best song in my heart , for making your smile as the best candy in my heart , for making your face as the best wallpaper in my heart , for being so precious until I didn't even want to lose best friend like you . :)When I met you, I would`ve never thought it`d end up like this, but as our friendship grew, I realized how much you meant to me. :) There's always that one friend who can't easily be replaced by others, just because you know that friend is the best one. You're always the BEST one :) You're my Clumsy Mushroom Pudding Fany forever :) FOREVER :) "

 

 This is for her

 

 

I feel like want to cry when reading her message. She the one that know how to appreciate.

 

Last night(22.12.2011), my best friend called me. She told me about what had happened to her on YouTube. It`s about a video that I post. Me and my best friend really mad about that video. It doesn`t said that we like the one who being the topic. That isn`t. We commented the video because we doesn`t like how he said that to his fans. Even thought that his fans are acting like B*tch, still he has to appreciate his fans. If his fans said a bad words to him just ignore or block them all the way. Or make the video for the fans that saying bad words to his. Give them a warning. No need to do a parody like that. That make other fans hurt their feeling. After that mad at me and my best friend. Until capture our comment and post at Tumblr. And he`s kind of coward. He gave a message and doesn`t just comment at the video. What a chicken!!! Chirp! Chirp! Chirp!

And me and my best friend really miss to another. And 10 days more to go school. I`ve kind of excited to go to school. Well because I miss my friend, Taeng a lot. Well I hope we got to go to the same class for next year. * Pray to Allah *

Girls` Generation

Well I love them since last year. Because my best friend tell about them.

They all are SPECIAL. Especially, my Fany Fany Tiffany. Love you all forever.

The guys that I admired right now

Kwon Se In

Nam Woo Hyun of Infinite

Yong Jun Hyung of Beast

Lee Howon a.k.a Hoya of Infinite

I don`t have any idea why I do this

Well, I make this because I`m boring to death.

Title: Heartbroken Song

It will be the last time

You`ll saying ' I love you '

After this all our happiness

We have been through

Turn into memories

While smiling you let go my hand

At first I thought you just joking

But it`s hard to believe

That`s the real thing.

While holding your hand

I cry, I beg, I ask

Why so sudden?

But you didn`t saying anything.

Without mercy, you still let me go

Your steps become farther and farther

Then you`ve gone from my sight

Leaving me alone

Crying alone

My tears are flowing

Wetting my red cheeks.

*You breaks my heart

You promise to me

You`ll take my love

Promise to keep it forever

But you didn`t 

You gave it back to me

Without any reason

And let me go alone

Leaving me with broken heart

After all we`ve been through

The memories

Turn into the sad & heartbroken memories

And I`m the one that will be keeping it

Forever

And I turn it into heartbroken song

I try, harder than ever

But I couldn`t

The more I want to forget you

The more I will miss you

I just couldn`t

You too special to me

When I met you in my dream

I will hug you tightly

But again

You let me go

More terrible is

There someone waiting for you

You go to her

Hold her hand 

Then go away from me

I wake up crying

Alone

No one beside me

Only me

Crying

Repeat *

Everyday

Every night

I miss you

You told me 

I must forget you

Whatever the ways

I`ve been try

But I couldn`t 

If I met you again

In my dream

I tried to wake up

But I just couldn`t

My tears will flowing harder

As the time passes away

All day long

All night long

I`m hoping

If it`s a dream

I`m hoping

If you`ll be back again

But not

It`s not a dream

And

You will never come back

Again.

Repeat *

Crazy, Crazy, Crazy

You make me crazy

Thinking about you

Why?

Why I really hard to

Forget you

You just a bad person

That playing with woman`s heart

Because of you 

My life is ruins

You really breaks my heart

This is for you

The heart-broken song.

Okay, only that. Well I do this yesterday(18.12.2011) at my grandma`s house. I do this not because I just got a fight with my boyfriend. Well I just do this.

 

 

 

Check this annoying video I`ve got from someone that I really admire a month ago....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RqSQxOjOCuw&feature=colike 

School holiday?? Well I really boring when thinking about my activity right now. I`m doing the same thing everyday. Wake up in 6.55 am, starting to on my laptop then surfing until 9 am, breakfast with family, taking bath, chit chat with my sis then lunch then watch TV then go to my grandparents`s house, then dinner after go back home after watching TV go to sleep. What a day! I really doing that in almost 3 week. And I really miss my Jelly a  lot. I want my Jelly back!!

You leave me alone

Cast:Tiffany Hwang&Kim Taeyeon&Lee Seung Gi

I was 16 when this thing happen to me.And my name is Tiffany.Everyone that I love leave me.It all about my immature and my cruelty.It all my fault.I am stupid at that time.I don`t care about my best friend.I only care my crush.She always give me advice that you will get hurt if I be with that guy I love.My first crush.If only I listen to her,this thing will never happen to me.Her name is Kim Taeyeon.I always call her Taeng Taeng.We know each other since we 13 years old.On that time,I also crushing to someone 1 years older than me.Tae never know about that.My crush name Seung Gi.Lee Seung Gi.He a good guy.After 2 years,I still love him.Lastly,Tae know about this.I tell her. “Taeng,I want you to know my old secret.”I whisper to her. “Mworago?”she looks surprised and excited. “Erm..I having crush with someone,” I whisper to her again. “Nugu?” Tae asking. “Lee Seung Gi sunbaenim”I whisper joyfully. “Mwo?Lee Seung Gi sunbaenim?”Tae shocked. “Wae?Do you also loving him?”I asked. “Aniya.”Tae said shortly. “So why?”I asked again. “Nothing but you will know soon.You will be hurting yourself.I`m not saying that he is the bad guy,he`s kind.”said Tae,giving advice. “That`s a good thing.I know he is not a bad guy.I will confessed to him later.”I let Tae know that. “Don`t.Hajima.”said Tae to me. “Nevermind.I want to know about what he thinks about me.”I said and I go.I winked before I go leaving Tae alone. “Fany!!”Tae screaming.

When I got there,infront of Lee Seung Gi class. “Good afternoon,sunbaenim.”I said to him.Seung Gi sunbaenim smiled. “What are you doing here?”he asked.At that time,I felt that I want to fall down. “Erm..I want to tell you something but I fill ashamed.”I said. “Just say that.I want to know about that thing.And also I want to said to you about something serious.”he said softly. “Chincha?Okay I tell you first.Sunbaenim,saranghae.Not as friend.Also not as student.I love you because your own self.I can see his reaction.My heart get out from my body.I can fill my heartbeat.So fast. “Chincha?”he smiled. “Ne!”I said. “I also.”he said shortly.He get up from his chair and he smiled sweetly. “I love since I saw you last 2 years.”his word make me surprised. “But firstly,I want to say sorry if we started couple,I make you hurt.”. “Ne.Couple?Starting now?”I asked slowly.He nodded. “I want go back to my class.Bye.See Ya”I said and wave to him. “I know why.Taeng,right?”he said.I smiled and nodded to him.When I got there,in my class,I see Tae sitted on her place. “Hi,Tae!”I said to her.She smiled a little bit. “How?”she asked.I smiled. “He accept you also?”she asking again.I nodded.

Starting that day,I always be with Seung Gi oppa.And now it`s been a year.Me and Taeng 16 years old.But I curious about one thing.Tae also said that I`ll be hurt.But why.And one thing also,Tae also avoid meeting me and Seung Gi.I fill weird.Why?So I will be meeting Tae whatever happen.When I got down from school stairs,I saw Tae standing infront our class windows. “Tae!!!”I shouted out her name.She looked at me and smiled.She looks so thin and so pale.I felt so shocked. “Taengoo,wae?What happen to you?Why you so pale and thin?Sowoneul Malhaebwa!”I said jokingly and a bit serious. “Nothing happen.I`m okay.”she said relaxily.She smiled a bit. “Tae,I want to ask you one thing.Why you always said that I will get hurt when I be with Seung Gi.Why?”I asked seriously. “Just do as I say.Don`t ask.Because this thing will happen no longer from now.”she said.Her word makes me mad. “Taeng..Why with you?Why you said that?You must support me in love or anything.Why you being like this?Why you so cruel?”I asked madly. “I`m not cruel.”Tae said relaxily.Her reaction makes me more and more mad with her. “What type of friend you are?I hate you since that day..Why you make me like this??You so selfish.”I said while my tears get down from my cheecks.I left Taeng alone.Before Tae shout, “Fany!!!”.I don`t care.I don`t want to be with Tae.She so cruel to me.Why this world cruel to me.But Seung Gi oppa still the best in my heart.Taeng?Not in my anymore.When I got home,my dad called me to go to living room.There are someone want to meet me.There is a nice woman but her eyes looks so red.I don`t why.She holding one blue basket. “Fany,this is Lee Seung Gi`s omma.”my dad introduce to me. “Ne,ajumma.Fany imnida.”I said to her.She started to cry again. “Ajumma,gwenchana?”I asked her if she fine or not. “Tiffany..”she said my name.I felt weird.Why she know my name?I know tell her Fany not Tiffany. “Do you love Seung Gi?Forever in your love?”asked that aunty.That question makes me shocked. “How do you know that I be Seung Gi sunbaenim?”I asked politely. “No need to call him sunbaenim,just call him oppa just like you always do.I`m his mother.He tell me everything about you and his feelings to Taeyeon,that also his cousin.”her words,makes me stunted.My tears go down slowly. “Don`t cry about this.And one thing more.This will make you crying more but be strong,okay girl?”she asked nicely.I nodded. “I`m sorry but I must tell you this.This is my son want.But are you ready?”she asked again.This making me wanted to know more.I nodded again. “Today Seung Gi don`t come to school,right?On 10.35 a.m,my son leave this world.”her words makes me confused. “I don`t understand,ajumma.”I tell her. “Well,as you don`t know..my son Lee Seung Gi died on his failed operation.”her words again makes me shocked. “Ajumma,what are you saying?Died?Operation?What operation?”I starting shouted at her.Why this day?Tae?Seung Gi? “Don`t shout at her,fany.Respect older people.”my dad said to me.My tears go down just like there are storm.I cannot say anything. “I..don`t..believe…”I said. “Seung Gi have brain cancer.Since he was 12 years old.Firstly,I cannot accept that situation.Everyday I pray and pray so Seung gi can live.Long time.But God don`t accept my wish.I think positively,may be God love him more than we do.Right?So may be,Seung Gi don`t want you to be sad and accept the situation just like said.Remember my word.Don`t ever forget,okay?”she said longily.I just take my breathe and let it go.So,all I can do is nodded all the time.

That night,I open the blue basket.Around the basket there is a word ‘Seung Gi`s stuff(for a while)’.I started crying like crazy.How can I accept someone that I love die?My first 3 years crush die on his failed operation.How?But I think may be I can just relax.But there is my mistake that I made,making I lost my bestfriend.My true friendship.Suddenly,I got a call from Tae`s phone.So I answered the call.I also want to apologise to Tae because not listening to her. “Yeobeoseyo?Is this Fany?”the voice that I recognized but not Tae. “Yes this is Fany.Is this Tae`s omma?”I asked politely. “Ye..”she answering me with a low voice. “Why omma?What happening?”I asking again to her because of her voice that always cheer but this time a sad voice came out. “Tae..Tae..”she started crying. “Omma,wae?”I asked curiosly. “Tae left us on 6.45 p.m.Her heart attacking her.One of the teacher meet her die on your desk at school.”she said. “Mworago?Taeng die?Omma…..”I started crying again.How can be strong if my love and my bestfriend left me alone in this cruel world. “And also she said she sorry to make you mad.And she said…I`m sorry I cannot read the other.I don`t understand.I hang off.I screamed like crazy.My dad came in.He asking why and he also shocked of what happen.He hug me as tide as could.

After a year,and I`ve been 17 years old.My life felt alone without Tae.My only bestfriend.My truly bestfriend.And also my world bitter without you,Seung Gi.He smiled everyday makes my world so sweet.My life just like a little boat having a hard time passing out the wave.I being more and more quite.Everyday I heard people saying about me.My bad.And my childish and immature behaviour..Let my people that I love left me alone.